Jun3Wedby Brittany Hamilton June 3, 2020
I have recently started writing a lot more. It has helped me immensely, mentally putting thoughts down on paper, and not bottling everything inside. I would like to share my story one day in hopes that it can help someone else. I am still not sure how to write it all down, but one day I will share it with you—my path from bondage and terrorizing fear, to healing and freedom in God.
“O Lord, You have searched me and known me. You know my sitting down and my rising up; You understand my thoughts afar off. You comprehend my path and my lying down, and are acquainted with all my ways. For there is not a word on my tongue, but behold, O Lord, You know it altogether. You have hedged me behind and before, and laid Your hand upon me. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; It is high I cannot attain it.” Psalm 139 1- 6
This psalm has always been my favourite. I went through a very bad time for many years, and went through a lot of hurt, and God felt far away, and I felt like He didn’t care. He has since showed me that He was there the whole time, and brought so much healing to my heart. This Psalm I have always known so well almost to heart, but it wasn’t until this pandemic that it became so real to me. During this pandemic, Satan has been fighting so hard to distract me in any way he can, and I was just feeling like I wasn’t good, then I read this Psalm, and next thing you know I am crying because I felt God’s indescribable love for me. He was and is with me and when the pain seemed more than I could bear, God was there, He is there. He has cared for me and loves me so much that the sum of His thoughts for me are greater than the number of the sand! God has had my whole life planned out since before I was born—He knows it all, and this knowledge is too wonderful for me.
I really don’t know the exact reason for this pandemic, but it has made me press in so much to God and His word, and really just put my trust in Him completely. One thing God has directly laid on me in this time is to deal with things I am in bondage to.
“After you have known God, or rather are known by God, how is it that you turn back again to the weak and worthless things to which you desire to be in bondage?” Galatians 4:9
The enemy is seeing people turning to God during this time and he hates it—he is working so hard to do what he can to use this time to pull us away from God, and be in bondage. Let us use this time to deal with things we are in bondage to. There are some things after this is over that we should never return to. What will that look like for each of us? “Little children, keep yourselves from idols” 1 John 5:21 in other words, keep yourselves away from anything that takes God’s place. Let’s take this slow pace time to really concentrate on what our focus should be on.